Maybe

I am a little conflicted on how to feel tonight. My first inclination is to be sad because tomorrow I will be without the one person who has been with me through everything all year. That chapter of my life is closing. It's always hard when things come to an end -- especially things that made you laugh and cry and see that things really weren't so bad on the worst of days.

Another part of me is trying to focus on the good and see that these sad feelings will not last forever. I want to be thankful for what I have and not concentrate on what I don't. Ooooh, it's so hard. Ok....here I go...

I am thankful that I can count on my family and friends. Especially in the most difficult times, they have stuck by me and loved me for who I am.

I am thankful that I have a job that allows me to have my own apartment and live comfortably. Many people in the world don't have this luxury. It's easy to take for granted.

I have to be thankful for an uncertain future. Maybe next year Thanksgiving will be different. Maybe instead of feeling conflicted, I will feel determined. Instead of feeling heart broken, I will feel loved. Maybe instead of feeling uneasy, I will be confident and ready to take on the world. There's a lot of maybes here but maybe they won't be maybes for long.

A girl can only hope.